What's inside


Belly
Originally uploaded by Sarah Dzines.
So yesterday came and went. It was my first ultrasound of the pregnancy. I had been waiting for it since the day I realized I was pregnant. This was the first time I was going to find out what we were having. My other two were left as surprises. I'm usually all for keeping it a surprise, but with this planned to be our last baby, and with an upcoming move...I thought it would be smart to somehow prepare myself.
I must admit that I am still in shock as the tech has confirmed and shown me that it is indeed a third boy! A big, healthy boy by the looks of it. Certainly worth celebrating. I must admit that I wasn't trying to get my hopes up, but really had thought the "plans" were that we'd have a little girl in there. I never imagined all boys. I had been dreaming of dollies and dresses, pink tights and tea parties for the last several weeks. So I almost feel like I'm mourning the loss of a little girl that will never be, but also feeling incredible amounts of shame for not feeling as happy as I should be about another healthy little guy. I'm hoping the nasty feelings won't last long and I'm sure they won't. And I hope you read this right, I didn't get pregnant to have a girl...that wasn't it. I wanted another baby and God has definitely given us one that we will love and enjoy as much as the other two. It'll just take me awhile to adjust to the fact that I have all boys...it definitely is "The fox and the hounds".
The little guy was very stubborn. He sat with his little head straight down and in...not giving any profile shot or really anything of the face. The tech was shaking and poking and rolling on my stomach with that camera thing for over an hour. She made me get up and move around, bend over, drink, pee...whatever I could. I was getting really sick of it and all that belly goop and my back always gets incredibly sore on those tables. Poor Greg was waiting out in the lobby with the boys. She finally sent me home with no pictures, and asking that I come back next week as she couldn't get all the measurements they needed. Uggh. So there's the update and hopefully next time I'll have ultrasound pics to share.

Comments

Elizabeth said…
Well congrats on another boy.. they really are wonderful as you know.. Now that you know .. you can get on with the business of Names and such.. either way .. I am sure he will be beautiful and happy and wonderful and all babies really are good news
Angella said…
There's nothing wrong with mourning the dream of a girl. It DOES NOT mean that you will love this little guy any less :)

Great news - can't wait to see pictures!
Ruth said…
Congrats on another boy! God must know what you're good at:). My friend Michelle had her fourth little girl in the fall and can sympathize...although she's willing to try two more times for a boy! I laughed and told her I have a good friend here who is the seventh of seven girls! (Their poor dad probably never saw the inside of the bathroom!)
Anna said…
I agree with Angela...there's nothing wrong with being sad that you're not getting a girl. It would be initially disappointing for me too but I can't think of anyone that, being in your position, wouldn't hope for a girl. And like she said too...no one will love this baby any less. I can't wait to meet my little (I hope) nephew. Now that you know though...mom and I were trying to think of more Scottish boy names today. Nothing great came up but we'll keep you posted. I'm so happy for you Sarah. I hope your pregnancy continues to go well and that by some miracle you get a 8 pounder! ;)
Heidi said…
You produce the most handsome boys and now Helena will have 1 more to choose from. Ha ha! Congrats...can't wait to meet him.
Awesome! A boy! If you're looking for Scottish boy's names, please do not pass over Hamish lightly...
T said…
Congratulations on Boy#3!!! Amazing, isn't it, how God gives us exactly what we need, even when we don't even know it yet??

Everybody thought that our Baby J was going to be a girl (poor boy...hopefully he never develops a complex about that=), but seriously when he came out all I could say was "he's so beautiful!" I wouldn't trade him for a thousand girls=)

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